The Truth Is Often Stranger Than Fiction

Christmas has come and gone, but vacation is still here!

I still have to work on finishing Breaking Dawn. And when I say work on it, I mean work on it. It is officially the worst book in the series.

I sit here doing nothing again, for the second day in a row. That annoys me and I don't have plans until tomorrow.

My wonderful boyfriend got me the prettiest bracelet ever! And I love it so much.

I was in the mood to write a little while ago but apparently that's not the case any longer. Maybe I'll attempt for Breaking Dawn.

You know, Christmas is supposed to be a time about family and celebrating the birth Christ. But when you think about it, we spend more time worrying about what to buy other people and making sure we get what we want. It just doesn't feel like Christmas anymore. The joy has diminished.

I have shortened my Christmas buying list this year. It's not because of lack of money but because I'm tired of buying for people who just want. I bought for my parents, my brother, Kenny, Mikey, Courtney and Stacy. Oh and of course for my princesses. And as usual my lovely boyfriend was the hardest to buy for, but I managed.

So I am still struggling through book 4 of Twilight. It's painful. I hate Jacob.

I also hate all of this flipping snow. Damn you Snow Miser!!!

That's it for now.

I'm sick again!

I miss my boyfriend.

I still don't know what to get him for Christmas.

It's snowing.

I hope we have a delay tomorrow.

Edward is a vampire.

Jacob is a werewolf.

I am cold and tired.

The rule does not apply.

I finally found a winter coat and I love it!

I can't wait for Christmas Eve.

The end.

I have a simple question...

Why is it that when a man DECIDES to take out a girl on a date and pays, that it is the WOMAN'S fault for his spending money??

It could just be me, because I'm not that kind of girl. But I don't give a shit if you take me out and lavish me with gifts, that is your decision. I have always believed that a date is a way to get to know someone else, as a time to talk. Go to a park for a walk, go browse a book store, grab a quick coffee.Just show me that you want to spend time with me. But DO NOT blaim your financial spending on a woman. Although I know there are some woman out there who do want the money and the gifts and what not. But any man who DECIDES to do so, well he needs to just deal with that.

Just like it is MY decision if I want to take Kenny out for dinner and pay. I will not complain,because it was what I wanted to do. And whether I do or not is also no ones business, but that's besides the point.

Sometime I just don't get people. Don't try to be a 'baller' (sorry for lack of a better term) and then bitch about it. It makes you less attractive. Grow some balls and deal with your decisions.

Maybe it turns out to just be me, maybe things are weird and awkward because of me. Am I self-fulfilling a prophecy? I thought it would be weird, so did I simply make it weird. I don’t know. Kenny asked me last night “why does it have to be that way?”Which got me thinking, maybe it doesn’t. Maybe things shouldn’t bother me in the way they do. But at the same time how could they not. She is different, I am different.

I felt out of place, almost like I wasn’t welcomed. She knew we would be there. Once again some conversation was forced, and once again we tried to make it feel familiar.

He was there, a person who I should be friends with because he is my lover’s best friend, yet I seem to have this inner itch to punch him whenever I see him. There is always a comment, always a way to make me sound dumb, always a way to make me feel bad about myself. There was a time when it wasn’t like that. I could stand his presence. But because I would do anything (within reason) for my love I will deal with it. He might as well be a werewolf, and I a vampire.

I have been reading too much Twilight but luckily I haven’t begun to over use odd or lame adjectives. I am almost at the end of book three, which can’t come fast enough. I hate Jacob. I pretty much hate Bella. Edward is hot. And I need more Alice. Speaking of Alice, which made me think of Alice from the L Word, I wonder if there are any homosexual vampires… it’s a thought to ponder.

I need a Bucks with a Booch on the side.

I am officially a college graduate…YAY! Now on to more school, grad school. Does it ever end? I don’t think I will start up again until the fall. I need a break. But when I do go to grad school can I talk about it constantly??

My mind is wandering again.

Falling asleep in his arms, it feels so right.I wish it could happen every night.

Yup, I have definitely read too much Stephenie Meyer.

I debate writing a book, well a children’s story. Maybe young adult. I would send it to Meyer’s publisher that way I know it will get published, or will my writing be too good for them. What would I write about? A girl who sits in a coffee shop and watches the people around her. A boy who finds out his best friend is a zombie( I say zombies are the myth of 2010). A child that is haunted by their deceased parents. They are all possible subjects. Although Kenny’s book would be better by far.

My computer's wireless card only works when it wants to. I know the feeling. But unfortunately I can't ship myself off to get repair. My computer on the other hand will depart from me on Friday.

I still don't know what I am getting people for Christmas. So far Michael is the only finished one.

NYC is my favorite place to be. Walking hand in hand through Central Park with my baby was so nice. I was able to have alone time with my favorite place and my favorite person. And like I've said to many, I could sit in NYC for the whole day and have a wonderful time. And the lights were gorgeous. And Rockefeller Plaza put me right into the holiday season. i could go back right this second, even if it meant walking around for 12 more hours and having sore leg muscles for two days. It's worth it.

I told you my mind wanders.

So I started my Christmas crafts today. I'm decorating long stem votive holders for my step-sisters. So far I have two sets done...
I kinda want to keep the star ones for myself lol. They need a few little finish touches. I got the idea from this women who had a booth at the craft fair and was selling them for $22 a pair.... 3 sets cost me around $12.

Well going to NYC tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get some presents while I'm there. And see my Ralphy!

Off to read to wind down. Good night!

"That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet"

My lovely Michael brought me a purple rose today. Purple roses are one of my favorites. It's sitting as pretty as ever in a bud vase on my desk.

I should be cleaning up my room but I thought I would take a little break. I rearranged my books and they look lovely. I can't wait to have my own digital cable box in my room. How exciting!

Tomorrow is the 8th grade field trip to A Christmas Carol at the Hartford Stage. I'm excited! i love being an educator.

I have noticed that I have become spoiled. Spoiled with love.

Ok back to my tasks. Maybe I'll watch Twilight while I do so...hehe. Or maybe some Garden State, it's been ages since I watched my favorite movie.